Trust is overrated ,
Love an illusion.
Infatuation and lust,
Can't make you say you love me.
Sex binge,and it's freedom of expression ,
Kept me feeling so disillusioned.
You made me fall in love, my Judas.
Now I know why they say love is blind.
Cause in its realization
Your only regrets becomes why you loved so blindly.
Now all I wonder is all i lost when my eyes where blind .
How foolish I must have being when ur kisses was all just the breadth of Judas.
Whom other had you made such promises ,
How long has this plan be going.
Guess the execution
So clinical.didnt know
All you were was just calculating Abians.
Now it's clear .
For how can someone like you ever love some one like me.
When their is some one just like them, wanting to be with someone like you.
Now I wonder if your perfection was really true.
So many what if's are all I can ask.
that journey to enugu took just less than 2hours,
Coming back took more than 8hr,s plus a lot of excuses,.unaswered called and phone now shut down.pls tell me what really went down.
How do I
expect you to tell me you fucked someone else.
All the Oats that you took knowing that's all a lie,
My God I must be damn stupid.
what was I even thinking,
Our blood DNT just match.
Was that when all these games really started started. damn.
so long it was .
my God .
You were done .
I gave you everything blessing.
You bought body enhancement drugs, who were you impressing .
Cause as you were I loved you.
Never made you feel less of ur self.
So why order online behind my back why o why blessing why.
I hope it's worth it.
Hope you've not lost ur self playing me.
Cause their is a damn thing line between faking it and reality.
Now that the veil is all off,
And now I see,
Guess it's all too late ,
Know I've played.
That I see,
cause you want me
Not that am cleaver.
I guess you are leaving .
Guess those love songs I wrote you was cause I fear I lost you,
Gad you Abians are so intentional ,
Just for ur selfishness. and all the wrong reasons.
Then the aross
,enugu ezike
,guess you Abians are the worst of it.
I never believe I would one day write these song,
damn I am so hurt.
All I planned was forever.
Now I wonder .
When you said that you love me,
were you just playing.
Those times you plan taking you life,
Were you just playing me.
Those midnight you cooked my meal,
was it part of the plan.
Those times were in my arms,
into the night,
was is just sex or u using me.
Ur sudden need to meet up with ur sis at enugu, was it that guy.
the married man, or Mazi.pls let me know my frenemies.
just tell me.
All is done,
Guess all is lost .
need I still fight .
guess you will be gone before the 20th.
But know it today,
in the depth of your heart, blessing.
Their is a karma.
It's real my baby.
What goes around do come around .
be mindful,
cuss you are just at the corner.
For when it comes cause come it must.
i wish you three times all you gave me.
Now tell me all your times with Rita.
were you both playing me.
All these time with the tailor.
were you girls playing me,
All the time with my bike man,
is he too into this game.
All the collaboration with ur mum were they too into it .
Does your sister know u aren't coming back.
Is she too in it.
does ur mum know,
pls tell me who else knows.
I've being a fool. wanting more than I can chew,
I'll be fine .gat to be strong.
just pray God its not far gone,
that I can't bounce back from.
Lots of questions.
Just wish I gat some answers.
or will it just be another dam lie.
Guess it all started when you realized that our blood don't macth.
Oh what a lie.
but If it's worth anything,
just know it was I who left you.and not the other way round
Shalom.
And good riddance.